| Sunday, September 24, 2006 |
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there are times when i can totally be myself ard u guys and soak in yr company even though we are walking aimlessly ard town..that sense of knowing when there is silence..and even that silence is comfortable cos there's that mutual understanding..i dun feel judged and somehow i can freely express myself the way i want to without feeling as if im being judged. that mutual acceptance is reallie rare... im so blessed to be part of the ij family...and i wldnt give anything to replace that. why is it that i can only be myself when u are not ard..that's just not right. cos there's suppose to be a connection..there has to be..considering ive known u since i was 5 and i tink i once loved u before..i mean as a child i wld have..but i seriously have no idea wad happened to us..maybe this has dragged on for too long beyond repair along with all that has happened over these years that i lost trust and hope in our relationship. when u're ard i feel so restricted..wadever i do is wrong in yr opinion..or u think dat it's stupid..i've never gone shopping with you since three years ago..i keep wondering how it wld be like if u didnt appear in my life..i noe i shldnt be thinking of that and i shld actually be grateful but ya..and i forgot ever since when we actually had a conversation longer than 2 sentences exchanged.. |