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Sunday, September 24, 2006

there are times when i can totally be myself ard u guys and soak in yr company even though we are walking aimlessly ard town..that sense of knowing when there is silence..and even that silence is comfortable cos there's that mutual understanding..i dun feel judged and somehow i can freely express myself the way i want to without feeling as if im being judged. that mutual acceptance is reallie rare...

im so blessed to be part of the ij family...and i wldnt give anything to replace that.

why is it that i can only be myself when u are not ard..that's just not right. cos there's suppose to be a connection..there has to be..considering ive known u since i was 5 and i tink i once loved u before..i mean as a child i wld have..but i seriously have no idea wad happened to us..maybe this has dragged on for too long beyond repair along with all that has happened over these years that i lost trust and hope in our relationship. when u're ard i feel so restricted..wadever i do is wrong in yr opinion..or u think dat it's stupid..i've never gone shopping with you since three years ago..i keep wondering how it wld be like if u didnt appear in my life..i noe i shldnt be thinking of that and i shld actually be grateful but ya..and i forgot ever since when we actually had a conversation longer than 2 sentences exchanged..

Friday, September 22, 2006

PRELIMS ARE OVER!!!! OVER OVER OVER OVER

it;s soooooo good to be able to sleep till u are automatically awake=) read my book frm 11am to 7pm..one whole book!! oooosh..finally...i can put my day to better use rather than spending it on studies..yayyyyy...im a happy person=)

THE BANQUET shld be renamed "the movie where everyone dies in". all the main characters died 0_0 and we sat at the first row..thing is the charatcers punctuated almost every sentence with underlying meanings dat i ended up confused..haha..
but zhang ziyi is super captivating..she is one good actress..good thing is the whole movie set was magnificent=) tink all wu shu shows never fail to capture that..
buttt..i got to eat my nachos..so at least it wasnt dat bad..haha..

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

it's almost over...almost almost..1 more paper and prelims is finally over=) den...the fun comes!! at least for a while..im so looking forward to the sleepover on fri..

the aircon in the hall today was like -10 degrees...so bloody cold la! and the best thing is of all days i forgot to bring my jacket today..0_0 so i was freezing frm the peak of my head to the last fibre of my toenails for 3 whole hrs in the ice box..but even those who had their jackets on throughout were also freezing to death 0_0

right after the paper..went to gelare to eat waffles!!! half price on tuesday..woo..good timing there..haha..the cookie dough ice cream is delicious=) den we patronised the newly opened DAISO at ps..woahhh...there's super alot o stuff on sale..and it's very easy to over spend at DAISO..just take 20 mins to walk ard..and u'll find yrselves lugging at least 4 items..0_0 and it's very tempting to buy alot o stuff there! cos the jap products dun look cheap at all even tho all items are sold at 2 bucks each..i wanna go there again..havent explored the entire shop yet..haha

devil wears prada is a must watch.The plot is interesting..the whole idea is refreshing..the clothes and fashion is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and anne hathaway pratically looks good in every outfit.. i love the show!! watched it for the 2nd time today..made me a happy person=) i just get drawn into it feels great..and even if u're not into fashion..watch for miranda presley!!

Friday, September 15, 2006

My Personality


Neuroticism	33
Extraversion	39
Openness To Experience	29
Agreeableness	52
Conscientiousness	51

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Neuroticism

Stressful and frustrating situations can sometimes be upsetting to you, but you are often able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. You are generally calm, although some situations can make you feel anxious or tense. You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you. You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in. High levels of stress can lead to you feeling panic or confusion, but usually you cope with day to day pressures.

Extraversion

You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. You generally make friends easily enough although you mostly don't go out of your way to demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You have a generally cheerful disposition.

Openness To Experience

As a practical person you like to think in plain and simple terms. Others describe you as down-to-earth, practical, and conservative. You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You are reasonably interested in the arts but are not totally absorbed by them. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking.

Agreeableness

You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity.

Conscientiousness

You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled. Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.

apparently, 4 out of 5 of my results for this personality test is the same as baey's..haha..

the past week has been papers after papers..chem is reallie retardedly difficult..and it dosent help when i took sucha long time to process each qn..alamak. econs was 0_- abit no time to finish...but it cannot be compared to the bio paper 2 which i tink has clinched the award for the most unrealistic time set. it's insane la...and the teahers complain that our handwriting is illegible...harlo..how do u expect us to write legibly when all of us are panicking like chickens.

anyway...im just glad it's the end of the week..prelims are ending!! =) den i can play mahjong!!!yayyyyy!!!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

i had the most meaningful service at church today...so glad i went to church=)=)=)=)

it's reallie great to be able to noe more abt GOD every week..there's so much to learn and noe abt him and his love for us..and that sense of annointing and knowing is just so !!!!!!!!! ...i dno how to describe it..haha..it makes me wanna jump and sing praise=)

in the words of pastor lian..To walk with GOD as the bible says is to just agree with him that Jesus has paid for all our sins on the cross eternally. it's as simple as that. GOD works in simple ways and we just have to believe and rely on his love for us..the path of the righteous is ever bright up till the perfect day=)

jesus said, " I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU."

someone shout AMEN!!!!!!!!

AMEN!

she shared beautiful testimonies and this one has left a reallie deep impression..

There's a friend of hers by the name of John i tink..cant rmb the full exact name..John has a 2 year old daughter who is taken care of by a nanny. Just a few weeks ago, he heard his daughter's screams frm the room and saw the nanny sitting on a rocking chair which has severed the last two fingers on her daughter's right hand. He rushed her to the hospital along with the two fingers that were wrapped in tissue paper..then he spoke to the doctor who told him that it was impossible for her fingers to grow back and that his daughter wld have small stumps after the operation. but John insisted that with GOD..anything is possible. In his exact words " NO...no..u dont understand...With GOD..anything is possible". The doc said " NO..no..YOU dont get it..fingers cannot regrow just like that." and he got rid of the two fingers..
But John still insisted that his daughter's fingers will grow back cos GOD can make anything dat's wrong, right again. After a few weeks, the doctor was reallie super ultra bewieldered to find fingernails growing from the two fingers that were obviously growing..

HALLEHLUJAH! =)=)=)

technically the prelims has alr started last week..but the horror of the horrors begins 32 hrs frm now..0_0
it'll pass very soon=) this past 2 weeks have reallie tested my self discipline..to sit and stare at my notes for hrs..the starting's always difficult..and the thing is i dare not not study for my prelims..but i hope that im prepared enuff..cos for the last two days my disclipline just died..buay ta han..

i totally agree with wad my aunt said..while having dinner with my family together..we started talking about their past childhood lives..ahha..damn farnie..discovered alot of stupid stuff my dad did when he was young and how rebellious he was..in the past..life was reallie hard for them cos my grandma had like 8 children to support..and my aunt said sth abt the stress that youngsters face in the past is more like physical cos they cld only eat chicken for like once a year and my grandparents were reallie strict..as in they didnt let their children turn on the lights in the hse after 8 pm 0_0

so no tv no newspaper reading no anything-that-has-to-do-with-lights after 8PM cos my grandparents sleep damn early..i was like !!! cave ar..my grandparents were super strict with them in the past..even when their children were alr working...haha...and i found out how rebellious my dad was..tsk. hahah...but who wldnt be..no lights after 8pm..0_-

and my aunt said in the past wad the youths faced was more like physical stress but now..wad we face is deesgarsting puke-inducing mental stress..

for these past weeks..i have experimented different places and environment to study in..sch lib..esplanade..at home..ava's hse..food court..haha..reallie no life but studying at these places have been quite productive so far..dats cos there's always someone there to keep me awake and prevent my discpline frm dying on me..

anyway..amidst all the pressure and the intense mugging..stay healthy and happy and keep fit=) cos this is the danger period for gorging yrself with food..i eat like a cow everyday la 0_0 esp. at ava's hse..

i cant believe i queued for 45 mins today for a plate of char kway teow frm newton circus which moved to serangoon...wahh...reallie testing my patience..by the time my sis who eats like a sloth finished her dinner..i was still queing!!! rahhhh...and frankly speaking..it didnt turn out to be that fantastic...at least not worth the wait. wah..feel so cheated..next time i shall just stick to stingray..heh. it never disappoints=)

Friday, September 01, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAEY!!!

celebrated baey's bdae yesterday at suntec..right after teacher's celebration's in sch which ended reeallie well=) altho the skit was abit erm lame..but still it's teachers day!! =) abit of lameness wldnt kill..haha..

chris ho went all out man..he came in an incredibles outfit and did all those unbelievably UNTEACHER-LIKE poses..hahaha..reallie very spontaneous. which teacher wld dare to do that la..pls.

actually..i tink we do have rather good teachers teaching us..erm..a majority..somehow i feel that we shld all sincerely thank each and everyone of them for all these year's of hard work..tolerating our nonsense especially..come to think of it..it's rather tough to be a teacher..i mean u've got to noe how to teach..as in TEACH. not just noe yr facts(erm..and u've got to noe yr stuff)..and at the same time u've got to be engaging lest the class falls alseep..and u cant be too overbearing or strict or inflexible or digress too much..u've got to have a sense of humour or a personality that we can relate to..anyhow..im gna miss them all..along with the teachers that have taught me in the past..all will make up my teacher(memory) lane. haha..

just heard that my grandma was admitted into hospital yesterday cos she fell down at 3am and fractured her hip bone..but she's fine now=) thank god. thought abt the times i had with my grandma since i cld rmb..i rmb when i was like 4 or sth i used to be at my grandparent's hse like perpetually everyday..and when i was abt 7 to 9 or so i 'd look forward to the chicken rice that she'd always buy and put right smack on the table after sch..and how on one instance i suddenly got very tired with my grandma sending me back home frm sch..so i decided to walk to my grandma's hse on my own..haha..my poor grandma was so freaked out and worried...bad cass. got quite a scolding after dat i tink..haha..but my dad commended me for walking home alone when i was only 7! woo..the times when she played with me and my grandpa at the playgrd with my cousins..the way she pronounced my name..the way she nagged at me to eat more and her exasperated look when i didnt listen..i love my grandma!!!!!

and i heard sth so cute..haha..yesterday my grandma was reallie having a rough time cos of the pain..but today she felt soo much better after eating my aunt's home cooked food..hmm..maybe it's in the genes why everyone in my family likes to eat so much..