| Sunday, May 14, 2006 |
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i'm such a let down. in just one day...i have let down so many ppl including myself..esp.myself..i noe that no one is perfect and everyone has short comings...bud i cld haf done better..much better to tackle my short comings..i have never felt so disappointed in myself before..maybe it;s time to do sth abt it. i;m reallie sorry brani juniors for screwing up some of the routes during leg 2 cycling..reallie sorrie..my sense of directions suck and was rather zombified dat night...and i;m sorrie that this has cost dem to go alot o yuan wang routes..i wasn't very encouraging throughout the cycling route cos i was worried abt the keys that were misplaced since the start of the race..0_- is dat sway or wad. bud i gotta accept the consequences and i will do anything to make it up to u guys...i gotta do wad i've gotta do..i just feel terrible. not for the shortcomings that i have bud rather for the trouble and inconvenience that my shortcomings have affected others.. bud it sure was a fulfiling day altho leg 1 abit waste time cos i was stationed at yishun mrt...was SUPPOSED to do maths..bud as always...no mood=never touch hw=die on monday and for maths test brilliant. bud ava and i went shopping!! yay. erm..mini shopping... i love the white pants frm U2!! i cannot stand it...it;s so pretty!!! ahhhhhhhhh....and we bought bracelets( THAT ACTUALLY FIT OUR WRISTS) ahhaha...yay!!! and they r super pretty!!! we reallie can make use of every opportunity to enjoy ourselves..hhaha..god..den den den...went to newton food centre to eat stingray!!! muhahaha...cos dats one of the stations=) sambal stingray rocks!!!!! den rushed back to east coast to start leg2...hai...leg2...erm...the experience was bitter sweet...bitter cos i screwed up alot..sweet was seeing how brani juniors stuck together even in the worst of times when i cld see that dey were reallie tired...bud dey were only physically tired...mentally..dey were going strong...i;m reallie proud if dem..their spirits were maintained high torughout the entire race and the wonderful thing is dey never gave up..that is reallie sth. go brani!!=)=)=) was zombified the next day..i literally slept when i was cycling..such that my bike went hay wire..hahha...i was having dose short interrupted dreams while cycling..amazing..i was super sleepy la...den went home w a guilty heart and plonked onto bed. until 6.30pm..shiok. bud i woke up feeling like a hungry ghost...skipped lunch ma...heh. had durian cake!!! frm four seasons durian..shiok!! for mother's day..haha..somehow i feel like the antagonist of my family..now things haf gone the way i wanted and hoped for last time..bud i realised that all along it has been me that is unwilling to take the initiative and make the effort..it;s difficult for me to trust her again..and to open up tp her..i cant imagine myself doing that..i'm reallie selfish..i cant take the first step. |