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Friday, April 28, 2006

i dno whether to feel relieved, glad or disappointed w myself...tink it's abit o everything..i didn;t take up the challenge afterall...cos after factoring in all my factors including hw..i decided it's not reallie worth it and i haf a strong feeling i wont commit to the trainings..so i talked to ying kang today...and he found a replacement..phew..go sherine!!! i might seem like a coward or selfish...bud i dun wanna do sth dat i dun feel at peace with..

ok..enuff abt dat!! haha...went to support stan today...nj kinda got trashed by hc...bud dey fought reallie hard..it was a good match...clap clap!! stan is super pro la...his strokes are like WOAH..power...bud i guess hc is much more powerful..haha...bud i'm prouda dem all!!! dey fought hard till the end=) and his sis came to support him!!! tink dey both personality the same wan..hahah..so cute.

went to makan at kfc after dat...the zinger burger dere is PUNY...no wonder there is free flow o drinks..ahaha..dose cheapos..had mcflurry!!! it has like the highest fat content among all deserts la..bud it;s delicious!!!

oh..and guess wad...kenneth and ava got stuck going east north south and north again o singpore just to find a taxi to ZOOM to sch...bud dey ended up reaching sch later than me and guen reaching home AFTER WE MAKAN-ed..hahah...damn farnie la..

tmr's napha!! hope i dun screw up sit and reach..haha...shall put in 100% for my last 5 items in my life!!! how shiok is dat=)

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Night hike!!! on the 22nd of April..brani won night hike 2006!! w alot o help frm bernie i must add..=p tink we wldn't haf won without bernie's hints...*smacks head*
bud i love brani juniors!! dey r reallie super fun and special in their own way..haha...dey r a fun bunch to be w la..anyway..night hike. yes. started off at pasir ris mrt at 8.30pm..and i got my hair cut before dat oso!!! at first i was reallie shocked at how short and sparse it became..n i didn;t noe if i wanted to skin the hairdresser or not..bud jesus turned it into a blessing..hail jesus!!!

oh yar..so we set off at abt 9 plus and walked super fast to pasor ris park..played some spastic pbstacle course games..haha...the spinning thing w ye head down is damn dizzy la!! cannot siao kan dat thing...den went to tampines biking trail..wah..dat one damn tiring la..all the puddles and it was like a jungle area...woah..quite scary...den went to more parks..did more stuff..the clues were quite difficult tho..wad deorestation lies..hahah..oh yar!! the bomb cum rugby game at tampines stadium is super fun..hahah..interesting..and i wana bomb dat chok..dat plea kept on saying to m grp"jia you!! u all can do it without cass!!" 0_-
bomb.

the seniors simon me ava meisi and bernie were like some cheer leaders behind la..kept on cheering our juniors on to go faster..bud i'm reallie proud o dem...dey reallie gave it their all in terms on physical..not so much in the solving o clues and planning their route tho..haha...bud the juniors manage to find their own short cuts for some stations!! not bad..sang cheers along the way..bud till like 4 plus 5..we all kinda died..all except ava..still going strong..hahaa...i cldn't feel my legs alr la...and my ankle joints were hurting like shit...bud we still had to keep on walking dat sickening long stretch o road frm pasir ris to changi..yesh...it's insane...bud we did it!!!

den comes the freaky changi houses..super dark la..sickening ben..think o such a freaky station..bud it's fun and meaningful la..haha..train up our weak hearts..the clues were hard to find tho... ziplog bags..farnie..abit not obvious 0_-

den made it to changi beach...den all knock out...didn't c many gays tho..haha..sad...we were reallie looking forward to seeing gays..bud only saw a transvestite..oh well...hahaha...the senior guys decided to be spastic and did sapstic poses for the cam...i tink the cam spoil liao..haha...bud dey r reallie damn gao xiao la!! all o dem..god..

reached home ard 9 plus..bathed and slept for 8 straight hrs!!! hhaa...dreamless sleep summore..shiok.

kk...gtg sleep..school tmr..late day!! heng.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Aristal rocks!!! It was reallie reallie worth it man..haha...u can actually feel the energy and the passion emitting from each and every dancer on stage..u can reallie c dat dey r reallie damn proud to be performing up dere...the passion is super admirable..woo. 100 thumbs up!!!

esp chinese dance!! wah...damn good la..the chereography and everything..watch till u actually wanna go up there and dance w dem...and halfway i was wondering how they manage to come up w sth so beautiful within such a short time..i'm super proud o chua li tara and jing ting!!!!! dey were great man...and tara..woah..dancing in heels..yesh..HEELS...she looked super hot la..and li!!! woah...alot o solo parts..ultra graceful...u can reallie c the effort dey haf put in...pei fu pei fu...we will rmb dat night forever..

oh yar..we didn't carry out operation S24 afterall..cos weilong managed to get a crew shirt frm chua and got in through back stage..ahahha...when i heard i was like..wah! so fast..dats called efficient man..haha...am glad dat he manage to catch the performance!!

after dat...went for supper at the clementi food court w bloop jennifer ava fu wei ben yee wen and chua..den eat till super late la!!! ultra late...cant even catch the last train..dats how late it was...ahhaa...den took 165 home..not bad..1/2 hr only..

tonight's night hike...think it wld be fun..ahha...hope we dun get freaked out too badly..hai...actually i dun feel like moving at all la...feeling damn sian and damn bad for ps-ing my ij friends...bud i've got to do wad i've got to do...sorrie guys!!! miss u all!! life in nj is definitely different than in ij...wad i can say is dat...i haf changed in the way i tink and as a person..i dno if it;s for the better or for the good...bud thing is..jesus will take care o everything!!! dats wads most impt...

k..gtg cut my hair..

Thursday, April 20, 2006

hai...just heard that weilong lost his aristal ticket...oh noooooo...feel damn sad for him..bud he will find it, i strongly believe he will before the concert..=)

anyway..wearing the skirt tmr..god..gna feel umcomfy i tink...i dun wear skirts out!!! bud there's always a first time to everything..ahha...ava's wearing a skirt too!! =) she'll look great=) after tmr..it's gna be hectic..all the stuff..3 consecutive sats not coming home to sleep...omg...mum and dad gna shoot 10000 missiles at me..and my sis...i wanna spend time w my sis!! arhhhhh..havent had much time to do so...feel quite guilty..hai..

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

ahhhhhhhhh...more proposals to complete by dis sun..sac dis sun..mendaki dis mon..brilliant..bud we will survive!! just hope i dun konk out...am reallie tired..haha..anyway..i felt this empty feeling during oac meeting today at the oac store..i felt that nobody reallie understands how i feel or bothered too..tink it's just me..i'm not a person to open up easily if dats the image that i portray..i dno y bud i feel chirpy ard my friends..bud true ones are reallie hard to find...it all seems like an illusion..hai...shld stop being so pessmistic...i can feel this wall ready to spring up whenever someone gets too close..i dno y..might be that i dun trust others easily interms of relating stuff that mean alot to me...bud i get cheated very often!! rahhhh...not fair..

anyway...onto happier stuff!!! i love the song bad day!! love it alot..ahah...the tune and lyrics and all..this is the 5th time i'm hearing it..heh...i like to replay songs and never get tired of them=) just like how i will never get tired when i'm ard my friends..they gif me sth to look forward to..it's their prescence that realli e matters..thank you jesus!! for blessing me w such great blessed friends..hahaha...back to chem..0_-...sian..

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Ha! Finally! this week has come to an end..and all the proposals are done!! yay!! phew..now can concentrate on sch work...bud i dun tink it makes any diff cos i dno how to do probability tut...rahhhh...probability sucks..bleh. i dun freaking understand the topic!!! bomb..

and i wanna bomb ying kang..like seriously..i'm sorrie..bud the way he speaks is reallie !@#$#@#$...and some of his ideas are irrational..thing is he dosent freaking get the point that we need to consider the safety as well as the liability of the race!! bomb..and we r not hum pls..0_-
i mean ok la..some of he's ideas for clues r very interesting bud thing is it's way tooooo difficult and some require standard materials which is super troublesome..hai...

anyway watched reincarnation on fri night after recce..damn feaky la..bud plot is like crap..0_- reallie..i'm never watching a horror movie for another few months..damn watse money la!! 9.50 k!! i'd rather watch tristen and isolde or take the lead..tink it wld be sooooo much nicer...and i'm broke..haha..

oh yar...tried the famous crab noodles at amk blk 233..god..damn ex la..bud it's good..slurp! haha...super delicious...and super ex...bud guess wad...after we ate frm dat stall...my dad realised there is another crab stall opposite and apparently according to him..dat was the famous one instead..0_- thanks ar...spend 77 bucks just like dat..haha..bud it was a great dinner..enjoyed it!! dats wads most impt..have yet to try the beef noodles tho..

next week will be a super busie week...bud busie w fun stuff!! yay..hahah...looking forward to night hike and aristal..as well as dcgrsc outing!!! bud can only meet dem for 2 hrs..sian...night hike lor...sorrie guys!!!

Friday, April 14, 2006

havent blogged for ages..cos for this ENTIRE week...i've been doing the stupid sac proposal!! #%@@##$#...breathe...date line's dis week...dats y we are all rushing like hell..and it is through this dat i realised how frustrating it is when ppl dont haf the right attitude towards taking responsibility for sth dat they r involved in..god..i almost strangled him..ahhaa..bud nvm..i shan't explode cos o dat..it dosent change anything...
i wanna thank avalene!!! i wldn't haf completed the recce without her...she rocks!! thanks ava!! i reallie feel super blessed to know her :) u never fail to brighten up my days :D

got tons of hw to do...saipok...how to finish..alamak. bud the sense of satisfaction keeps me going..it's tiring bud fulfiling:) i will survive!! will not yield to stress...and i haf to finish my work...rah.

last wed was orienteering at bukit timah..brani is reallie quite slack..hahaha...tink it's in the genes..and eric...omg..eric...he's damn damn damn qian da...bud he's a joy to haf in brani la..ahhaa..tink the rest of the grp tot so too..there was this one part that i felt like throwing my shoe him...we were alr late...so i was shouting at my grp to run down the super steep slope at bukit timah..den suddenly sickening eric pointed to a signboard along the steep slope which said " STEEP SLOPE. DO NOT RUN" wah peng. i almost died..haha...and he was like" u ask us to run i will tell the ranger" 0_- qian da or wad..

and ya..got bombed by the teachers..for not telling dem dat brani will arrive late..ya..i shld haf called one o the teachers...my fault..bud the fact dat dey wanted me to bring the entire grp back to visitor centre when we completed 3/4 of the trail is reallie quite dumb..like harlo..it was only at 5.45 dat her back started becoming painful and intolerable...turn back? dat must be the dumbest suggestion..im sorrie bud yar..oh well..learnt my lesson..must call must call..hahaha

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Today's reallie short day has turned out to be the longest school day and i ended up w two freaking proposals to finish by dis week!!! ahhhhhh...how did i manage to do dat...brilliant. bud it kind of gives me an experience of what it is like to actually plan stuff and do up a proposal...so i guess it's good in a way...bud my homework!! siao liao...my hw will definitely be compromised..confirm..must learn how to balance up...hai...oh yar...did i mention sth..chua is greatly blessed cos she uses aqua fresh to brush her teeth..ahhaha...

tink i'm going nuts..desperately in need of sleep and more time..

i dunno y i'm feeling this way...i need to reallie stop tinking abt it and drown myself in work..i dun wanna hurt anyone...and the only way is to shut up and not think abt it..i shldn't be feeling this way...omg...this is terrible..now i noe how painful it is...argh...i need to stop this..right now.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Today's been a slackish day....not much work done..haha...bud somehow i dun reallie feel bothered by it..didn't have the usual worries abt imcomplete work..

i felt reallie peacful and happy today although my mum has been CONSTANTLY nagging and shouting at my sis for almost the entire day except when we went to church...i realised how important it is for us to stick together even though how bad times are and how annoyed we feel...tink the greatest credit goes to my dad!!! haha...i dno how..bud he can somehow look at the positive side of stuff and turn wadever that seems bad into sth not-s0-bad..he keeps doing dat and we just cant help it bud start to c things in a more positive light too...i'm so glad to haf a daddy like him...:)

anyway..church was ok i guess...wished pastor prince was preaching tho...bud nevertheless..it's still jesus that matters...he brought us to church for a reason...knowing jesus has certainly been the greatest blessing in my life..confirm plus chop.

after church i kind of slacked my time away watching tv..as usual..hahaa...bad bad..and yar!! tmr's chua's bdae!!! shit...forgot to get the comic cakes for junying and chua when i actually literally passed by the polar cake shop this morning..0_-

and i realised sth abt myself..i'm reallie reallie UNOBSERVANT...i'm so unobservant i cld bomb myself..ahhh...and i haf very very very bad sense of direction..so much for being in oac and still not being able to navigate my way through my new neighbourhood..*smacks forehead*

this year's coming to an end soon...i'm sooo gna miss my class and oac ppl..sobx..i'm gna cherish the 9 months left!!! only 9 months and who knows whether we'll still keep in touch in the future..and i'm reallie glad and blessed to haf known some friends in nj who haf made my stay there rock...If not for them i think my life in nj wld haf been super sian and unfuflilling..even though there are only a few..these few are awesome and i reallie feel blessed...:)

need to continue reading stupid sexual reproduction notes...sian..

Saturday, April 08, 2006

new blog!!!

hmmm...decided to start my new blog...haha...there's always a first time for everything..

anyway..this week hasn't been a great week for me..i noe i shldn't brood about it and shld move on...bud it's difficult..it is. The cruel reality just keeps creeping back...
Common test results reallie gave me a big FAT slap in the face...time to wake up cass!! haha...bud that's if i respond to the wake up call...this seems so retarded..getting upset abt sth as sickening as CT RESULTS( DDDE B4)...bud i'm in the paper chase now...and i cant run away frm it..
my first entry and it has to start on such a note..brilliant..haha..bud things will turn for the better!! just need to find out wad the hell is wrong...
anyway..moved hse just a few weeks ago..at the beginning i reallie hated the idea of moving..leaving all my memories i had in seasons park...bud as the days got by..i kinda got used to it..and realised it isn't so bad afterall..haha..my new neighbourhood at amk has THREE hawker centres joined together!!! shiok or wad !!! bud the showertap ar..DISMAL..and the waterflow is pathetic..